Blimey when i say ‘suitor’ i imagine im in the wrong century. But lets keep it real. Im 34 looking to get married so that i can begin a family. Clearly something went wrong along the way. Im not usually one to ponder on the past but its sometimes useful in Order to put a stop to repetition. Anyways there are many factors for why ive been single for 3years and find zero men attractive. I mean the match was on earlier today, (bravo Real Madrid last min goal) my friend points out Ronaldo and i immediately think to myself not attractive at all. Perhaps he has charisma and oozes sex appeal but looks wise hes put together well but thats it.
So you see my situation i find it impossible to find anyone attractive. But im still pro-active and heres what i did:
10 days in London 12 dates 🙈😏🙄
It was lovely and a Disaster. All successful Gentlemen except 1 based in and around London. All introduced via friends and family and work colleagues.
Date 1: This one i had been communicating with for 2months so i was super excited tonfinally meet him. Ended up being the biggest failure of dates. He was insecure and snappy. He ordered 3 cold tapas dishes and complained about money issues so i felt bad ordering another dish so remained hungry. He told me hes never met anyone like me who lives the way, private jets yachts work when i feel i want to, i cant possibly wear so much makeup he barked and basically who do i think i am being so happy. Thank fully im very mature lol and snapped right back with darling you might wish i was insecure enough to break down with your wish washy comments but i genuinely feel sorry for you. These things dont determine me. Its relationships and friendships that get me going because its all that warms the soul. Many insecure men (& women for that matter) will attempt to belittle you to make themselves feel better. Ive seen it time and time again. When i was younger i would just sit through it and feel bad later. I said to this chap think before you speak in future because you may damage the confidence of a young lady if shes fragile in some way. Have some shame and be a Gentleman in future. If i overwhelm you or im not what you expected thats no problem one simply states as such and 2 mature adults walk away. Job done! Anyways he apologised profusely for the rest of the date and i simply never replied to his second date offer. May i add this guy looked nothing like his picture, i believe my shoulders were broader than his and he wore hipster style trousers perhaps from the 80s. But i kept this to myself as i didnt want to dash the little confidence he has. Self-marketing much lol
Date 2: no comment
Date 3: Happy Handsome well Dressed well mannered but unavailable due to work committments. Sometimes we have to make a call do we waste our time or not. I wasnt sure so…
Date 4: …same guy second date. We walked for 2 hours through Hyde Park had tea at the lovely Italian Cafe. He was attentive had a very similar childhood to me and i could talk about life without explaining in detail because he just got it. Not crazily attracted to him but i could see him growing on me. After the date he said he would like to meet again before i leave London. I thought why not but still had many dates to go. Sadly we didnt meet again and he was so occupied with his new company it didnt feel worth pursuing. I left it at if im still single next time i visit London lets meet up. He agreed 🙂 Good call!
Date 5: A Uni friend’s childhood friend. Turns out he knew all of my friends at uni calling us the popular group. Tells me how he blossomed after uni and never really had friends before then. Sadly his sad stories drained me. Handsome and humourous guy but just didnt feel right for me. He’ll make one girl a happy lady.
Date 6: Handsome Funny and Goofy but much too immature to have a family with. He needs at least 10years to be on my wavelength. Setting him up with my younger sisters friend 👍😊
Date 7: Very Camp and Feminine. Humourous Tall Scottish Lad had a a blast but zero attraction
Date 8: No Upper Lip. Superficial i know but what do i kiss!!? Can one kiss teeth 👹
Date 9: Drank alot and sang old folk songs claiming a label wanted to sign him but he was too busy for the fame 🤔
Date 10: A cool surgeon who was smooth charming well traveled well mannered and very well dressed. But he was 4 inches shorter than me. Thank the Lord i wore flats on this date. We remained friends and now im setting his sister up with a friend of mine 👏
Date 11: Afternoon Tea at Claridges. More my kind of date. The guy was a little older and raved on about his travels and life experiences throughout the date. He said hes been told he doesnt sell himself enough. I wanted to tell him he might want to work on self grooming. Trim his beard pluck his nose hair get a mani pedi and pls dont spit whilst speaking. Say it dont Spray it! Anyways who am i to change anyone. Someone will love him exactly the way he is. Thats just how the Universe works right.
Date 12: Panic sets in since this is my last potential suitor for dating and hopefully marriage. Great conversation m, a tiny little chemistry but proposes mid-mains. Im not so sure how these things work but this felt too soon. We remained friends and that was that.
My time in London was coming to an end. It dawned on me i may never find anyone attractive again lol. Maybe im that new breed of A-sexual!?? This is a real sexuality type btw. Some people are just never attracted to anyone throughout their lives. I find that super upsetting. Whats life without Romance Love Desire Heartache Jealousy and sheer yearning for a Partner. Love it All!
So i do what any sane women hitting her peak does…Call the EX. Were now 2months in working on old issues rekindling our old flame. Hes already proposed but ive told him i need time to think about it. I might get to have it all in the End. Lets see ❤️❤️😂❤️❤️❤️❤️💪